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Jen paused, momentarily, to ponder the idea of a working dinner with Alex.

She was stuck. She needed to get away from that novel as quickly as she could and as far away as she could possibly get.

She sighed. Her eyes glazed over and she was suddenly on the beach during that last break she’d taken from writing. What could it hurt? Sun, sand, the liberating feel of floating weightless in warm, lapping water–suspended in a time and place where her mind wasn’t focused on deadlines or a novel that felt dead-ended.

“Jen?” Alex’s voice interrupted her memory.

She sighed again.

Two or three beats and then she heard, as though from faraway—

“Hello? You still there? Jen?”

In response, she disconnected the call.

“No!” She said aloud. “No, I am not here!”

Turning, she grabbed a bag and started to throw clothing into it–beachwear, sandals, a big floppy hat, and yes–she probably needed sunscreen.

She was leaving the questions behind.

Let her characters figure things out for themselves.

She was off to find inspiration.

Without deadlines. No. More. Deadlines.

The noise sounded like a train running underground. Then the floor began to heave under Jen’s feet. A couple of pictures on the wall were suddenly askew. Jen ran to stand in her doorway because she’d been told to stand in a doorway if there was an earthquake.

Bad advice.

The doorway collapsed, and then her flat and most of the building collapsed with it.

So, Jen got her wish to take a break.

No. More. Deadlines.

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“Ok,” said Alex, taking a gulp of the cheap red that they’d moved onto after pretending to prefer the fancier stuff. The gulp was deliberate. This was a segway. They’d been very polite and professional. They’d dined well (which wasn't the same as good eating in her book, but he was paying) and they had sipped the astringent white elegantly enough. They’d talked about everything apart from the book. So as the desert dishes (more like art than food, she’d thought) were cleared, he said forget coffee and ordered a bottle of the gut-rot that was his guilty pleasure, and when it arrived told the waiter to "just fill ’em up". The veneer hadn’t so much slipped away as been deliberately wrenched off.

“Ok,” he said, drinking to make sure she got the change of tempo.

“About the book…”

Jenny opened her mouth to jump in, but he was still having none of it. “We don’t want it,” he said.

“?”

A look was all she could manage. They knew. She knew that they knew that this was how she worked. The original lastminute.com author – not a Douglas Adams who only loved deadlines for the whooshing sound as they flew past. She treated that whooshing noise as the fall of a guillotine. She had ALWAYS made sure she was out from under before it fell. She delivered ON TIME. Always. Very precisely on time, to be fair, and maybe that’s not what they really wanted, but then that was up to them to say so. She had a sneaking suspicion that the deadline they gave here was a good month ahead of the real one anyway…let’s face it, they knew her well enough around the industry by now. If they needed it to be six weeks or two months – that was their internal politics surely. Give her a date and she would meet it. Very precisely. To the minute.

She was meandering all over her internal shop with this notion of deadlines that she’d downed her first glass of the surprisingly pleasant red, and not a heard a word her agent had been saying.

“?” she didn’t say again. Alex was astute. Maybe he could pick this up.

“You’re not listening,” he said. “It’s got nothing to do with the deadlines. It’s the plot.” This time she couldn’t even raise a facial expression, she just looked at him blankly.

“OK.” She hated his okays. It made her feel like she was back in school, with Mr Whoever trying once again to explain basic physics to her. Or was it an old boyfriend who had done that. A two-letter word, not even a word, that meant “pay attention this next bit is critical…you have to understand this bit even if the rest remains black hole deep to you”. Or something. She loved a memory and a metaphor. She wondered if she should take her notebook out, or just write on the napkin. Ah, no. That was scrunched. She had a tendency to use napkins and handkerchiefs interchangeably. Deep breath.

“The thing is,” he said, “Oh look…I’ll see if I can get a stay of execution, but please…get Jennifer out of the hospital and put her in the police car, make Michael’s injuries as plausibly awful as you can, and then double it…because we both know that’s how it really was. Seriously, Jen…if you’re going to write this one, write it as it happened. We can decide in the edit whether it’s fact of fiction…”

Her hand, around an empty glass, was shaking uncontrollably. And she thought she heard him think "And quit with the tears woman, we both know you better than that." Turned out she didn’t, she hadn’t noticed them.

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